No it is not ok...

If I Were A Boy

If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
'Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy

Beyonce'

Love ~ Lust ~ Trust

Trust held as dust,
Earned or lost,
If never of love,
Should not by lust..

Hush...
Listen from the beginning
Learn how trust never is healing

Whisper...
Trust is earned and lost
It must never be questioned
Thus trust is keen as the answer is unseen;

Lost of trust is the word that has been said,
The live that had been dead,
The rhythm that had been faked,
The blood that has been shed,
The time that cant be backed....

But grow, learn, listen
It trust not life,
Hence starts not ends..

~DASHA~

4 things u cant recover ....

Somehow Its all the same ....

It never mattered what people say

I know they know everything

Yet i never believed them

It never felt like it was wrong

But i knew somehow today you were lying

Yet I never believed me

I adored your dreams and stood by you

I caused you burden but never disgraced you

Not a day of your lifestyle I doubted you

I never thought that I'd feel this again

Cheated betrayed for the feeling still the same

Worse than ever thought you were not like the other

The words you uttered sounded like from above

You told me everything and convinced me you were loyal

Believing was my arrogance and seeing was my blindness

Trust you gave was to fade the lies

All you've said today seems to deny

You say i was the only but another you fancy

Now love's pain has gone somewhere

Yet I'm still hanging there

Bleeding with tears heart ripped so bare

Ill stick through it since i have changed

Questioning if my hearts confined

The present and past Ill leave behind

The future decided Ill never return

Hope or see, touch or feel

What you did to me, simple yet final

~sha~

~ Your Deadly Lullaby ~

~ Your Deadly Lullaby ~

May the angels leave your sight;
As the demons haunt your nights, May your smiles fade the falling heights;
As darkness shall fall upon life your horrible fright,


May truth prevail the liar u are never a knight,
You're worse than the God sent dark blight;


May all your wishes and dreams never shall be bright,
You're a sickly plague caused by u a deadly mite,


May hell fall upon you as you die alive in the grave so tight,
I swear you will cry your living for you will loose its good sight;


May the sin u shone on me be an end to all my plights; You shall suffer the worst death without guidance of angels in white,


My justice will be replied cause God is my witness of all might;
Only then I’ll ease that everything now is finally all right.
~SHA~ Rest In Pain

-->© Copyright Dasha - 2009 . All Rights Reserved.

AIM 09

AIM!

btw its ma 2nd tattoo....

~SHA~

MA BIRTHDAY 09!!!!!!!!!!!

My perfect child. Mushu Lycan.

U can't turn back time......

If u r reading this ...... You will know who you are??

i know i aint a perfect fren... n in ur definition ... one is only ur most noble fren when they agree to everything u say n want... if not... they end up as traitors...

i know u play save by being nice to both sides..
but when others do it is wrong even if they are not involved at all in a specific problem..
n i know how d game goes...
but im not playing any game or am i ever goin to acknowledge d game u choose to play.....

i know u want everything the way it was...... BUT ITS NOT....
we have said n done too much to the friendship we created that we our selves caused its ending....
when u had a chance to say it all u chose to write in as a 3rd person... n when u were suppose to be the one who listens you chose to blame it all on a 3rd person who is your fren....
n now... its too long its too late.....

dun compare situations to be d same... relationships or friendships....
everyone's situations n problems are different...
dun try to make another's wrong right to make urs look fine...

frenz will last when the frenships are honest & true...

~SHA~

"HEAL"

by: westlife

Even though you're near me
I need you far away
To be an ocean
To build another way

I'll be broken
And I know it
But I just can't seem to find
Another way

Though you want to
Though you try to
You can't stop the rain
For the first time
It's not you
Who can heal me

I need some distance
To find another road
It's not so easy
Sorrow, such a heavy load

I'll be broken
And I show it
But I'm gonna have to live
Without you here

Though you want to
Though you try to
You can't stop the rain
For the first time
It's not you
Who can heal me

Poets say
As time's a case
A broken souls were mend
But you would come around again
So my sorrow's gonna end

But it's not you...
Heal me...
But it's not you...
Heal me...

Though you want to (though you want to)
Though you try to (thought you try to)
You can't stop the rain
For the first time
It's not you
Who can heal me

Though you want to (though you want to)
Though you try to (thought you try to)
You can't stop the rain
For the first time
It's not you
Who can heal me
Heal me

Weeping Willow Tree....

Weeping willow tree
Creeping d nights winds
Touches follows d leads
Of life’s left seeds
Touch me tenderly

I hear you lil baby
Calling thy the mommy
Carry me back 2 eternity
Happiness seems so lengthy

Past still haunts d heart dats lonely
But gladly u hold me closely
While im under d weeping willow tree
Still searchin our destiny

Hearing seems too fade clearly
Sight of angles ends d darkness and misery
Weeping willow tree I know you’ll carry me
Strong and loving u gave me life as charity

Weeping willow tree
creeping d nights winds
I promise you honesty
Love despite misery

~SHA~

© Copyright Dasha - 2008 . All Rights Reserved.

Leaving and The Left

Left but still,
To watch you leave,
Alike sharp edges of a knife tearing into my soul,
Drops a bloody tear on the graveyards soil,

To watch you leave
Alike knocking on a door opening to a wall,
Alike ocean deep of speculations nothing assured to recall.


To watch you leave
Alike waking up alone in the mornings never to see the sun
left are the moments of  small pieces of a past.

To watch you leave
Alike knowing there's no slightest little chance of a return,
just choosing to believe it what the answer is known already.

To watch you leave
Alike The trust in ur eyes that has faded, 
Your  love to me has been invaded.


To watch you leave

Alike knowing I've lost a part of my heart.
A sanctuary. A self. A throne.
Alike the assurance to be known to be left alone.

~Sha~

© Copyright Dasha - 2008 . All Rights Reserved.

To ma Untrue Friend.......

Dear,

Untrue Friend 

And here’s something thoughtful for you from me,

Never again will I allow this
How could you treat a friend the way you did?
No more of your crap of taking advantage of their kindness
And the lies you created and mean remarks you make for your own pathetic greatness,

I'm done with your games and childish words,
Ur eyes cant lie as well as your lips can cheat,
If you were right; why are you acting and explaining like the one who wronged?

Im strong and I will never have to defend myself from a being like you,
Cant you see, your cruelness and fake in this world and a dying wannabe?

No more of ur stupid excuses and tries,
No more of ur lies and deception,
No more of YOU in our lives,

Your meaness outweighs the happiness and trust ur friends have for you,
Just go, like u said reality hits hard,
Let me ask you, whos true fren are you at their heart?
Like i said, NONE!

And so my words are a double edged sword,
For so long we wished you would change,
Yes you did, to become someone you can never be,
Someone who don't have all you claim to have or see,

But you decided from the start,
That friendship was only a one way street,
Dont tell me no shit,
That you care for a bit,
Cause when i was there alone you were never a fren in need!

Taking without giving
Breakin without mending
Backstabbing without regreting,
No sorrow for my heartache
No kindness in adversity
Nothing....

Im done
N I'm NOT sorry to say,
In our eyes you've changed
Lower than anythin astray
And will always be an UNTRUE FRIEND everyday...

© Copyright Dasha - 2008 . All Rights Reserved.

You can run but you CAN'T HIDE!!!

You stole from us all hence my wish for you...

may you burn in hell.....

the least you can do now is come clean... btw i wont be surprised if you don't cause that's how low you have been all along...

May you sleep in peace at night...

~SHA~

Calling Out...

Dreams;
left to flow away,
Trust;
shattered in a simple sway,
Around and around,
The lost soul,
Lost so too long;
Begging to come back,
The voice unheard,
Sinking,
In the depths of her flooding fears.

Calling for another,
Someone who would rather,
Lose himself and not her,
To see her for her; and not for others.

It's killing her,
from inside out;
her silent voice screaming in horror,
Hands reaching for him in terror.

He stood there, At her fading soul he stared,
Without guilt or pain feelings he bared.

She faded away,
He left her there, she's l ost from her way,
Not a word he would convey,
Let her be dead and decay.

© Copyright Dasha - 2007 . All Rights Reserved.

MY "TWIN"!

DAT THIN ICE HAS BROKEN...

Finish it all ……… That is if u come back.!!

All your promises.

I’ve never asked or expected anything.

I gave it my all.

I know you will never return.

I know it all now. 

Thank you for now. 

Most sincerely,

SHA

2007 RECAP!!!!!

guess its today...................

hey Shahali......

By d time u read this u wont here.... 

We spent Christmas eve together...
Then the usual that felt so unusual..
Breakfast... Ozana.. the packing for the moving (the leaving actually)
BAMBOO HUT was for the night!!!!
Always only 4 special occasions ...

Then that was it... he left...finally this just got real.
Guess I'll wait.
And just wait and see..... 

SHAHALI

~SHA~

NAJU N GRACE !!!!!

~kite runners...... fugly version~

~ SHA~

SHA's DAY OUT..........

Spending time with me keeps me sane and at ease... cause if you can't spend time alone.. then others wont have that much fun spending time with you... cause you might be a crappy company.

Shahali got me after....
After his time with his family...
After this which they would all be leaving...

It hit me .... really did hit me when I  cleared my drawer at Shahali's place....
And he cleared everything else...
No more Ozana ......
No more asking FatV favour rides back to uni...
No more cool bike rides with  Ihsans fugly helmet....
No more switching d AC using its wall switch behind our beds headboard.. cause d remote is shared by all  rooms in d house and  no one remembers where we left the remote last...
no more ... juz no more.... this sucks man. SUCKS. 

YOU are leavin ......

20th april 2007 4.45am.....

Pain i saw you go through... the hardship ... the self-wars...
But now.. you're leaving...
Its worse finding out this way.. at the very last seconds of the times there's left together...

Been told I have a guaranteed come back from u.....

But oh well, who knows..
I can only just really really miss u.....

so much ... .... nuthin compared to how much  i do love u.

"Leaving On A Jet Plane"

All your bags are packed, you’re ready to go

I'm standin' here outside your door

I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn

The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn

Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me

Tell me that you'll be back for me

Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause you’re leaving on a jet plane

I don't know when you'll be back again

Oh, babe, I hate to see you go

~SHA~